Pink Corduroy Overalls I'm throwing my old life away. So many things I've bought over the years for no practical reason. All those things I've never used. The books I've already read and those I've never read that filled the bookshelf. Then there are the wild and crazy symbols of freedom I've bought such as the pink corduroy overalls that I've kept for some kind parade down main street that I've never attended. I've dumped all those things into the waist can this morning still wondering if I'm not making a mistake. But I sure could use the money I've spent on those today.

Spring's on its way and Nature's telling me to spread my wings and fly where ever the wind blows or my heart takes me. But I wish it was that simple. Nothing is simple these days. There's so many things tying us down but few that give us the freedom we desire. But perhaps this year will be different then the last few years. I'm hoping for that. There's so many ways we chain ourselves down willingly and with pleasure thinking that it's the thing to do at the moment not leaving an escape door open just in case if we change our mind. But when we find that it's not what we want to be doing we find ourselves trapped. And that's when problems begin. So it's time to take a break, time to go on a trip to get away from it all and recharge the batteries, if you know what I mean. If all those prove not enough then it's time to start thinking of making more serious changes. That's more or less where I've found myself a couple years ago. I've decided then that I want to relocate to Amsterdam, San Francisco or elsewhere like that where I could be myself again (in a greater sense then where I am now).

Labels: change, consciousness, crap, depression, expat, freedom, gay, geek, human nature, liberty, nerd, seasons, starving artist, struggle, time

  ¶ 2/22/2011 10:24:00 AM